The Master Coach classes-scam? or worthwhile? and does it matter?  it's not my money, my time.  If they think it helps, fulfills, motivates, energizes and they see positive results: better business, closer relationships, happier quality of life, isn't that what matters?  And isn't part of my icky thought process just jealousy?  That seems petty and small.  I could do that.  We have the money.  If I wanted to coach, I could.  Back to the ultimate question:  what do I want to do with my life?  Sometimes it feels like enough to enjoy each day-I have an amazing husband, we have a big, beautiful family, a lovely house in an area that still takes my breath away.  I have plenty of activities that fill my time:  the car pooling, house running, grocery shopping, cooking, laundry.  I have hobbies-reading, exercising, entertaining.  I try to spend time with girlfriends-coffee, book club, the occasional lunch.  I have a bit of volunteer work-at the kids' schools, Temple Solel.  I have the spare moment here and there-and I am drawn to the junk food of spending time:  celebrity gossip.  I did my "gossip fast" last fall and I did feel better. I was more reflective.  So now when I see that I'm overeating (and gaining a lot of weight) and spending time online I know that these are signs that I'm trying to distract myself from actually figuring out what's going on, or pain avoidance.  (which I clearly know doesn't work, and actually leads to MORE pain, not less).  I think it's time for another gossip fast.  And time to just sit back, breathe in this moment and figure out what I'm trying to avoid.