Getting Coached

I knew I was starting to freak out.  I've stopped eating Paleo, pretty much stopped exercising, am not meditating, I'm drinking a lot in the name of "celebrating", binge eating salty snacks, mindlessly internet surfing, playing scramble all the fricking time. I've just zoned out.  I even did all of that on my "rejuvenation" trip to Florida.  I'm feeling disconnected, exhausted and cranky. .  But to my credit-I've recognized that.  I went back to Suyin for coaching.  And we worked those thoughts-got to the crux.  And I do feel better.  I'm still not at my optimum self care speed-but I've turned the corner. She really helped me look honestly at what I was thinking and addressed each thought and feeling.  And I created some new thoughts that feel true and empowering.  I've pointed myself in the right direction.  So much better than punishing myself for being stressed and scared by going to WW!

Parenting Teens

I love parenting teens.  There:  I said it.  I love their sense of humor, their friends, I revel in their accomplishments, I'm blown away by their intelligence and unique gifts.  When they were little I seemed to relish what they did that seemed familiar, and felt comfort in how they fit in.  And now-maybe because of my age and sense of security-I love to see how much different they are than me, Stefan or any one else.  I'm fascinated and proud by how musical B is, how smart and world-aware E is.  I see how she's not super girly and outgoing (which stressed me out when she was younger quite honestly) is such an amazing thing.  She's the antithesis of a Drama Girl while still being kind and tactful.  B's sense of humor, his quick, dry wit is so fantastic.  I know there will be things that pop up-they're still kids after all with not a huge sense of time/responsibility/consequences.  But I feel such a sense of relaxation with them that I did not feel when they were younger.  For all I loved having babies, the snuggling, the kisses, the simple times- I did feel an underlying sense of unease.  Are they developing normally?  They seem so different than other kids-is there something else I should be doing to change/foster/control their behavior?  At this point I see they're that they're lovely, polite, smart, kind, talented young people.  I can assist with guiding and suggesting, coaching and cheerleading-but that burden (that I put upon myself and was futile anyway) of control is gone.