I've felt super closed off from people this week-some weird combo of having K & F here and feeling annoyed and cranky, G's social issues at school-either real or perceived by me   when he's just hanging on me at drop off and then says he does the swings alone at recess, S getting ready to leave tomorrow for the week, the insurance weirdness, my hair (I know.  But when I first get it colored I can't wash it for a few days-no gym-grumpy me.), trying to get everyone back on the school schedule after 2 weeks off-it's a lot of yuck.  And then there's the shame of feeling like other people can handle all this (so much 1st world problem) without flipping out-why can't I?  My signs of Crazy Town Thoughts: snacky eating-buttered popcorn, bowls of chocolate chips & peppermint chips, crackers with sliced cheese, whitefish salad on crackers, almost no servings of vegetables,  very little water, no 'real' exercise.  And what do I make this mean? Do I make this mean that I'm "slipping"?  Going down the same path as always leading me to larger sizes and general malaise?  No-of course not.  I'm not going to beat myself up for feeling sad, and then adding shame and more violence to the mix.  Sometimes you let your thoughts run away unchecked.  Sometimes you feel like shit and just don't feel like trying to examine why.  You just feel awful.  And maybe that's okay. You're not the Dalai Lama.  Just because you've figured out your triggers and know that you need to work your thoughts-sometimes it just feels hard.  Maybe you can just say-it was a tough week and have that be enough.  Now-where you are-go forward.  Do the things today that you know will make your body feel good (fuel food, water, exercise) and your mind feel good (journaling, quiet meditation, thought dump, pick one thing and do some turnarounds).  Treat yourself like you've been unwell and are trying to ease back into your life-you'd get lots of rest, you'd be gentle with your expectations of how much you could do, you'd be kind to yourself if you felt like you were relapsing-you'd pay MORE attention to yourself, not less.