Sugar

Stupid hip pain.  Ugh.  Despite ibuprofen I could feel it last night.  Not good.  It had been fine for months-so frustrating!  I need to stretch it later.  And maybe go back to the elliptical-maybe all the walking (even though I haven't done a ton of hills) is aggravating it.  All the sugar-I'm blaming that for the inflammation.  Meh.  I have definitely backed away from it-yesterday I had a small amount.  Today I really have to be even more vigilant about cutting it all out.  And I'm going upstairs to do some restorative yoga stretching.

And I was feeling so well after that-and then I had way too many fresh baked sugar cookies.  They were delicious.  One of the best things I've ever baked.  So that was it.  I will probably pay for it later when I ache. But I need some new thoughts about the whole thing.   Put into practice all of the Brooke self coaching I've been listening to, and watching.  I spent a long time this morning reflecting on everything I've been listening to and reading from her.  It's amazing.  Being kind, being patient, being committed, being non judgmental and an observer.  Taking things for what they are.  Being really honest and clear.  Liking your reasons for your actions.

I decided to go with yum, those sugar cookies were a-mazing.  Delicious.  I loved that they weren't too sweet but had a great crunch from the sugar crystals all over it.  Today I'm going to make snickerdoodles to go along with the sugar cookies for B's band dinner.  I am sure they are going to smell wonderful.  I don't eat sugar very often because it gives me joint pain, so I'll skip these.  They're not my favorites like sugar cookies.

So how does that resonate with me?  It feels a little weird-like it's new and I'm unused to it, but it doesn't feel like an untruth.  Sugar makes my body ache.  I don't want to ache.  I don't eat sugar. That seems pretty cut and dried.  I don't like how X feels in my body.  The results I get when I eat it are Y. So I am avoiding it to feel good.  I love feeling good.  I like being able to move, and stretch and go about my day without thinking about body pain like I'm 102.